Tears

I am having such an insane desire to cry tonight

All the pent up feelings are resurfacing, every single slight

Boiling just beneath my eyelids, fighting to be let free

My tears await permission to flow noisily or silently

The emotional baggage is now turning to an overload

All that has been stored inside, for so long, is needing to be told

Speaking out, or expressing without words, even through tears 

Just so I could rid myself of all these feelings, complexes and fears

Why do you increasingly speak with me so derogatingly

You just choose the worst time to behave with me disparagingly

As if I don't have brains of my own or I am an imbecile

I often keep quiet to maintain peace, it's not because I am docile 

I don't want to engage in a war of words because I love us so much

But my patience is wearing thin, please don't make it further stretch

I won't talk anymore or explain anything if I go away from you

Because all this while that is probably what you want me to do

The day you hurt me and my tears would just not come

That shall be the day of reckoning on what our relationship has become

To stay or to leave will just be a rhetorical question 

'Cause by then we would be way past the point of saving this relation 

So if you still love me and want me to be around you in your life

Keep praying that for every time you hurt me, my tears come alive

That they flow down my face as twin rivers of forgiveness 

One forgiving you, the other me and thus preserve this togetherness 

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